I seek salvation.
My fires blaze on mountains’ far heights —
The realm of night is in a glare.
But brighter blaze my spiritual sight
And You’re afar — but are you real there?
I seek salvation.
The starry choir sings solemnly in skies,
I’m cursed for good by every generation.
For you lights my bonfire on the heights.
You’re conjuration.
I seek salvation.
The tired choir of stars calms down, yet.
Night goes away with apprehension.
There You descent from far hills in sunset.
I craved for you. To you my spirit’s spread.
You’re my salvation!
О. М. Соловьевой
Ищу спасенья.
Мои огни горят на высях гор —
Всю область ночи озарили.
Но ярче всех —- во мне духовный взор
И Ты вдали... Но Ты ли?
Ищу спасенья.
Торжественно звучит на небе звездный хор.
Меня клянут людские поколенья.
Я для Тебя в горах зажег костер,
Но Ты — виденье.
Ищу спасенья.
Устал звучать, смолкает звездный хор.
Уходит ночь. Бежит сомненье.
Там сходишь Ты с далеких светлых гор.
Я ждал Тебя Я дух к Тебе простер.
В Тебе — спасенье!
«To Z. N. Gippius Enough’s enough: don’t wait, don’t hope; / My wretched people scatter! / Fall into space and shatter, / Year upon tormented year. Beggarly, will-less age. / Permit me, oh my motherland. / To sob in your damp fatuous freedom / To weep amid your empty steppes: — ...»
«He loved these three things / White peacocks, evening songs, / And worn-out maps of America. / No crying of children, / No raspberry tea, / No women's hysterics… / I was married to him.»
«I wrung my hands under my dark veil… / "Why are you pale, what makes you reckless?" / — Because I have made my loved one drunk / with an astringent sadness. I’ll never forget. He went out, reeling; / his mouth was twisted, desolate . . . / I ran downstairs, not touching the banister...»
«Dark my veil. Hands clenched painfully, tightly. / "Why so white-faced?" "To think, just to think! / It was I made him to drink; of the biting / Wine of sorrow I forced him to drink. "How forget? Out he staggered with failing / Strength, and face oddly twisted and grim. / I ran down ...»